"Test me, O Lord, and try me. Examine my heart and mind." v. 2.
I used to love the song "Sanctuary" - and would sing it to myself while driving or walking or doing dishes. I would pray a prayer similar to the one in today's psalm...."Lord prepare me..(make me) tried and true." But then I hit a time in my life when God decided to take that prayer seriously. I was tried -- I was tested --- and I came through to the other side. But I stopped saying that prayer. I stopped asking to be tested, since I now know the pain involved in such an endeavor.
Since coming back from Calumet this summer, Rose has started singing that song around the house. And it's one of the few that she'll let me sing with her. So I'm singng it again - a little bit - and with great fear.
I fear the power of that prayer and the implications of what I'm asking God. And I fear for what may happen to my child as she prays that prayer.
The words of today's Psalm are a little on the arrogant side. Even on my best days I couldn't say this entire Psalm and mean it. But I am impressed with the courage of the Psalmist who stands up and asks for God to test him and try him. This is a man who wants God's way more than anything else - God's way above his own peace, comfort, way of life, or current identity.
Perhaps someday I'll be a person like that. But the honest truth is I'm not there right now.
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